Dear Militant,

The silence is deafening. I get that. No one but you can truly understand what you went through. I get that too. What you need to get is that you need help. I don't mean that in a way to degrade you. I mean it because I truly believe that it would help. I believe that before anyone else can love you, you have to be able to love yourself, and you cant love yourself if you have a congregation of demons following behind you.

You have so many opinions that were formed in a time of need. But now you are back in the real world and you are in a time of different needs. This is a different reality then you are used to, and you have a great support team to help you transition between the two.

Don't fret over the girls. You need to concentrate on you. “When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others.”

We are all here when you need it, just remember that.

Signed,

Bad

Dear Dream,

You are the only that has made me forget about the rest.

You have made me forget about all the pain from the past.

Even in my moments when the pain flashes back, you have been a rock and stood by me.

You look past my imperfections.

You accept me.

You love me.

For who I am.

Thank you.

Love,

Dreamer

Dear Ma,

You have given us all a scare. It has been a rollercoaster and there were a few times that none of us were sure the next time that we would hear your voice. You definitely have taught us all a few lessons.

I never thought that I would miss the day that I had my mom around to tell me what to do, or to call me when I don’t check in. I never thought that I would miss having you around to let me know all the things that I would do wrong or out of line.

I have learned sooo much about life, about our relationship, and about myself in the past 2 weeks. You have taught me so many important lessons lately, that I cant even begin to list them.

I love you. I know that you are going to have a pep in your step when this is all said and done. You are such a strong woman and you will have to believe that when all of this is over.

Love,

Youngest

Dear Too,

You haven't been dealt the best hand in life, but you can bluff like the world series poker players. I admire you and how you have turned a crappy hand into a game winning deal.

You have always been an inspiration to me. You have been the one that keeps me going and gives me the insight that I lack when times are tough. You can make me laugh when I am broken down in tears.

You never stop trying for your family. You help everyone around you realize their potential. The thing you are hurting for is the ability to see your own. You are an amazing mother, wife, sister, and daughter.

One day I pray that you will see how amazing you truly are. You have helped me so much through my life and I am eternally in debt to you for that.

I love you, and look up to you. Thank you for what you have done for me.

Love,

Little

Dear Adventurer,

How you are able to look at every day this way amazes me. The strength that you hold and the determination in your eyes is awe inspiring. I see you going through what would break down so many people, but you don't let it get to you. You stand your ground.

Your family is lucky that they have such a strong rock to lean on. They are lucky that they have your genes in their bodies so that they will one day have the same strength that you do.

Can you tell me how you achieve that view point? Can you tell me how to look past the moment and see the bigger picture, so that you don't let the little things get you down?

I would probably never say this to your face, but you have changed me for the better. You have made me realize that there are worse things that could happen in life, and that will happen. You have made me realize that even though I am stuck somewhere that I have never wished to be, that I will get out of it and be ok.

Thank you for being you, thank you for showing that life is an adventure and that we should enjoy every moment, no matter the crosses we have to bear.

Love,

Your Fan

Dear Little Boy,

I sit here and watch you, and I wonder when all of this happened. I wonder where this patience that I hold for you came from.. I wonder where all of this love came from. I wonder, I wonder, I wonder.

Day after day I watch you grow, I watch you learn and explore. I dont know if I will ever be able to provide enough for you. I dont know if I can give you the love and attention and care that you need to thrive in this world. I dont know if I will pass this test. I dont know, I dont know, I dont know.

I love you so much. I could never imagine that one person could hold this much love for another person. I am just praying to that big person above that I will be able to give you everything that you need.

 

Love,

Mom

Dear Mister,

I love you so much. I just wanted to let you know what you mean to me. You are my light when things are dark, you are my stone when times are tough. I know that it all sounds so cliché but it is all the truth. When I was younger i didnt think that I would ever really find this, that I would ever want someone to be so close to me and yet… now that I am here, I cant imagine it any other way. 

Today when I left to go and take the little one back to his mom, and you finished dinner with no questions asked, except how to do it ;) that was amazing. It is so nice to have someone here, helping me, guiding me and working with me. I cant imagine having to be a single mom and do this on my own… that would be way too hard.

So thank you. Thank you for being here and thank you for finishing dinner :D

Dear New Found Enemies,

I dont understand why you felt it necessary to make the end of our friendship so public, I dont understand why you couldnt handle that in a more mature manner. Why couldnt you send me a message? Obviously if there is an issue than it should be handled, but to go and make it so known to the world and then to start ragging on those that are there to stand up for me, please could you just explain that to me? I dont understand how you can start to throw those words at me without even examining the things that are in your own life. You wonder why everyone around you that you think are your good friends disappear… guess what hun, the problem starts within. I am not saying that I am perfect by any means, I have my issues and I own up to that. But you ma’am, you have so many issues and you are blind to every single one of them. And you wish hell upon anyone who dares to point that out to you. I honestly hope that you are happy in life and that the journeys that are ahead of you go nothing but smoothly. And that ma’am is what makes me a bigger person than you, I am someone that will never wish you ill will, but what you wish for me is not appropriate.. even for the internet.

And to you, you claim to be defending her, and that is fine. It is all well if that is what you wish to do… but to make it so public? Really? I thought we were pass our high school days. To call my sister out on trying to defend me, which is just what you are doing for her. That was low, you obviously dont know all the facts, or maybe it is your love that blinds you. This wasnt a fight between me and you and I never wanted it to be, this was her, going below the belt and ripping away her own dignity. She wanted to make me look like the bad person in the situation, but she failed miserably and you chose to dive in after her. Thats great for you though, love conquers all in the end, and if you truly love her then I wish you nothing but happiness. Good luck having any friends left over in the end though.

And to you, the final person that decided to get caught up in the commotion. I understand that you felt it necessary to defend your sister, and I understand why you felt it necessary to do so publicly. I get your actions… but to start saying things when you dont have the full truth and to start calling names on a situation when you dont know who you are talking to, shows the immaturity that you hold. Dont say that my big sis is a bad person, and dont tell me how to handle my life or my situations at hand. You hold only a piece of information for my puzzle of a life. But just like the others, I wish you no ill will. I hope that you are able to grow up one day and see the error of your ways.

 

Signed,

Me